april 12

[JASON RUSSEL BARKER]

Time:

3:30 PM
Date: April 12^th 2010

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i told myself i would blog more and i've kind of been failing, i just never really know what to say anymore. i got all my banter and regrets out in 2009, i guess and now i'm just living. though i went back and skimmed my blog enteries from the past year and they made me feel like a complete idiot. one, it made me realize how back in the day people actually cared about what i was saying (or at least it seemed that way) becuase there would always be comments on my blogs! not so much anymore. im thinking maybe thats why i blog less. i know that seems dumb like i'm not getting enough attention or something, but i feel like a fucking idiot if there's no one reading it.

it also made me feel stupif becuase it made me realize/remember all the things i wanted to achieve at one point and now i wont achieve. like graduating high school and going to college. i don't even know what i was thinking when i wrote some of that stuff though. like seriously? me going to college? that's not going to happen even if i was to graduate. i just don't think i'm one of those college-y people. i'm not all that smart. i dont think i'd get accepted even if i tried real hard. but it is what it is, and i cant go back and change what happened, even if i could i dont think i would want to.

i'm starting to accept things the way they are and i guess that's all you can ask for.

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Jason Russel

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[blockquote][font=georgia][color=AABECA][sup][size=7]ONE[/size][/sup][/color] [size=5][color=303030]NEW COMMENT.[/size][/color][/font]
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[AUSTIN JORDAN BARKER]

^ONE NEW COMMENT.

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name: austin barker comment:

you're not an idiot, you're just weird... that's all big bro

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