I HATE

[JASON RUSSEL BARKER]

Time:

7:40 PM
Date: February 16th 2009

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i'm so tired of fighting and tired of bullshit. i want a new fucking life.
i hate how molly got pregnant
i hate how molly insisted on keeping the babies and said i'd didn't have to be part of their life.
i hate how molly dumped the babies in my arms and left.
god only knows where the fuck she went.

i hate how i fuck myself over so bad and everyone only catches me on my 'woman' days so i have almost friends.

i hate how i fucked my teachers to get better grades
and i hate how i let her suck my dick because she wanted to

i hate how i fucking asked someone out just to get turned down and feel like a fucking idiot.
and i hate how she acts like i shouldn't even be upset.

i hate how my cousin took me to a party when i was fourteen when he was supposed to be baby sitting me and i lost my virginity.

i hate how my ass is so big.

i hate how in the summer i was painting my fucking house and then i met him.
i hate how i offered him a drink and i hate how we ended up making out.

i hate how i'm such a fucking whore.

i hate that my stomach flip flops, and i have no idea who i should choose.

i hate that now matter how hard i try at school i fail.
i hate that i'm almost about to get expelled from school because i can hardly attend because i have to stay at home with my kids.
i hate that i had to quit my job

i hate how i have no idea what i want to do with my life

i hate how i always think that people just want me for my body and when i look in the mirror i don't think i'm good looking at all. i don't know when this fucking happened to me but i hate it.

i hate how i smoke
i hate how i drink
i hate how i do pot

i hate how no matter how hard i try to be a good guy someone gets hurt or upset.

i hate how i cheated on my girlfriend of two years.
i hate that i feel like i'm screaming in a room and no one notices, i just want to fucking talk to someone.

i hate how its always my fault; though it probably is.

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Jason Russel

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[cherry168]

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name: izzy hutchinson
comment:

what the fuck jason! calm down man.

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[danielhampton]

^ONE NEW COMMENT.

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name: Daniel
comment:

in the middle of summer, all was golden in the sky.
all was golden when the day met the night

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[JASON RUSSEL BARKER]

^ONE NEW COMMENT.

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name: jason whoreface
comment:

daniel stop it.
you're making me cry

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[danielhampton]

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name: Daniel
comment:

Sorry.

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